It is always interesting to notice that however we define ourselves will change. I was definitely a shy kid who became an extroverted adult who is morphing into something akin to an ambivert. I was the kid who excused herself from gym class who became someone who saw herself as athletic and then someone who needed to learn to back off from movement to heal. We are constantly in flux and just when we think we have ourselves pegged, circumstances change to turn us into someone entirely different.
As we are on the cusp of a new year, I am getting ready to welcome Courtney 37.0. 2018 is bringing a lot of change to my life, which like every human, sometimes I approach graciously and sometimes I approach with trepidation (read: kicking and screaming). All I know for sure is that I will be evolving.
One way that we can learn to transform is through pain. Pain sucks, and we do everything we can to get the heck away from it. We drink good wine, we spend more time on our phones, we read until our eyes close. We have never been taught to sit with it, which is a helpful practice because just like the childhood version of ourselves, pain is not designed to be there forever. It is there to teach and transform.
I have been working with this concept as of late, both through readings and meditations. I am not always great at it, but I wanted to share one of the meditations that was helpful when I was feeling physically uncomfortable. This is not meant to leave you pain free, but rather to allow you to sit in your humanness, warts and all, evolving perfectly.
Here’s to a New Year filled with growth and transformation.